I’m a recovering Pharisee.
I’m one of those people that likes to “do.” I’m not a sit still, wait for things to happen, and live with the results kind of guy. I’m the go and make it happen, don’t wait, it has to be earned if I want it kind of person.
That’s my personality. That’s who I am. And it’s totally okay. It’s good for those of us that aren’t afraid to work hard. It’s a good thing.
But it gets in the way.
When God convicts me of something or when it’s obvious I fall short, my first reaction is,
What can I do?
When I think about Christ’s sacrifice and his love and mercy in my life, my first response is,
I’ve gotta earn it.
When I see all that’s been given to me and all the blessings in my life, I jump to the thought,
What can I do with it?
You see, I’m learning that love requires a response. Gods love in my life and Christ’s sacrifice requires a response from me. It needs my service and my life.
It requires action, but it deserves my stillness.
God sent Jesus to live, die, and resurrect so that he could be with me, not so that I could just do for him.
The truth is, he doesn’t really need me, he just uses my action because he wants us to be together, he wants me to know him and understand him in new ways through my obedience to him.
But he deserves my stillness… My presence… My attention.
He deserves and wants me to just be with him.
I’m a recovering Pharisee because I want to earn and do.
His love is amazing because it allows me to just sit and be.
We all need to do more sitting and being with Jesus.