My Little Secret And What I’m Learning From It

I have secrets.

You know, those little things that you don’t want to tell anyone about and you’re always afraid that other people can see through you and see what you’re hiding?

My little secret?

I care too much about what other people think.

In fact, it too often drives me more than what God thinks about me. Why? I’m not really sure. I guess it’s because I can see the direct and immediate results from someone else thinking negatively about me. God’s opinion usually takes a little longer to reveal itself.

The truth? It’s not really that I care that much that people think positively about me. It’s more that I don’t want them thinking negatively.

And so I try – and try – and try.

I try to make them not get a negative opinion of me. I’ll even give a little bit here and there on what I feel is right in order to keep them happy.

Why the confession?

Because I’m done – for now I’m done. I know that it’ll be a fight again in the future, but for now I’m done.

Do other people’s opinions of me matter? Sure. I want to be someone that shines a light everywhere he goes, but not at the expense of knowing and pleasing “The Light.”

Are you with me?