You see, I’m a recovering legalist.
There was a time in my life when I used to think it was up to me to do all the right things. To have more check marks than x marks on my list of do’s.
I’d even see people who were doing things and think about how much better I was because I wasn’t doing them.
It wasn’t like I didn’t have issues. It was just that mine weren’t as easy to see, weren’t as easy to point out. I’d see someone doing something in public that I thought was wrong and think about how much better I was because no one saw my junk.
What I came to realize is that many of these things weren’t undeniably wrong, they were just my way of judging and getting a leg up on others.
It took me some time, but I finally came to realize that God isn’t keeping score to see if He loves me or not, that’s already a given.
What He does care about is that I’m surrendered to Him, that I seek hard after Him.
Ultimately, I had to realize that God just wants me. Not my deeds, not my perfection, just me.
It’s freed me beyond explanation. What I do now, instead of trying to see another’s sins, I seek to be like Jesus.
The actions will come with it.
I’m Jonathan and im a recovering legalist.